fairytale interrupted

But the fairytale had not always been that way. Love is never made out of all sugar and spice and everything nice.No matter how much of a happy front we present, I will always be the first to admit that there had been issues and there will always be issues. Maybe it's because we are contradicting personalities We have had more than our share of beef, which, if we were not planning/alredy married, I would've just walked out of it all, like I always do. Protect thyself before ye fall, I say.But this time,it's somewhat different.

The pain of seeing him leave me 8 times over the course of last year; each time not knowing when will I see him again.And the apprehension of whether he'll still love me the next time we meet again.

The expensive phone bills that we both racked up and the endless hours online which does not compensate for togetherness.

I remember the time when I said I didn't want to move to the UK until the end of the year, and he thought that I did not want to marry him anymore.

When we started planning the wedding, and we both wanted very different things, it tore us apart. We allowed it to get bigger and bigger, and without us knowing, it grew so big, it ate us up (moo & drey should remember this).It look us a long time to mend that tear in the relationship, and we are still mending the holes with nothing more than plasters

Then there was the one extremely clear moment in the past year when I seriously considered leaving him. Even 'nice guys' have their bad moments. I remember dreybee telling me over chicken katsu don and mochi ice cream that if I let him go, I might never find someone to love again.Ever.Will die a bitter old lady. So that decided, we sang crazy frog instead. Thanks dreybee.

I have had questions from readers and friends alike as to when/how did I know he was the one. Well, you don't. You just get a gut feeling, close your eyes, cross your fingers and jump.We've had what is considered a whirlwind romance,but sometimes it's not the length of time you spend with someone ,but the way he makes you start each day with laughter .